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Little Earthquakes

For some reason, my alarm didn’t go off this morning even though it was set. {Gee, electrical equipment failing.  That’s a new one.} I actually didn’t feel too bad despite sleeping very little due to the mushrooms.

At work, as I was looking for some apartment footage, I came across a box with video from a friend’s wedding that occurred a couple years ago.  I popped it in and was taken aback to see myself and my ex-wife on the video.  What are the chances that the company I ended up working for would have taped this wedding and held onto the raw footage for no reason and placed it where it didn’t belong?  I guess I had about two tears left for Cathy.  It was just kind of a shock.  The tapes ended up in the “to be erased” box.

Learning to Cry

Memories and feelings of exactly how important Jess was to me increased on a daily basis.  I realized that I had been deeply in love with her and this had caused difficulties in our relationship, although I didn’t know why.  But I could guess. Continue reading →

Waking Up

I woke up for the first time in a Las Vegas hotel room, almost oblivious to who or what I was.  Some mental mechanism was in place to prevent me from completely wigging out when I started to really think about any particular memory.  I felt like I was accessing my brain over a really slow internet connection: I could see all the directories and could access them all, but it just took a while for the information to download.  Although I had all kinds of information in my head, none of it really meant anything to me, in an emotional sort of way.  There wasn’t that subtle tug of familiarity that I knew was supposed to accompany important things in one’s life. Continue reading →

Church!

– by Me (when do I get to have a name?  I’m important too!)

I was worried about going to church because I thought I might have to sing, but Taran said no, so that was good.  Lots of people were glad to see us and I didn’t know what to say to them.  I found a seat and sat there looking around at everyone.  They let me take off my shoes and scrunch up on the chair and it was nice.  The people in the church were singing about God breathing on them and I wondered if God had bad breath.  Taran listened a lot and so did Matthew and Grey guarded the door and the big kitty cat sat nearby even though he went right through this woman next to me. Continue reading →

Yet Another Abdication

by Taran

We all loved her in our own ways and the amalgam personality felt it all.  He was an all-right kind of guy and probably had the hardest job out of everyone.  He had to filter our collective thoughts and wants on a daily basis.  All the more challenging when she was around [You spin me right round, baby, right round.] Hey, wait your turn.  Anyhow, things got tough and he hit the road, abdicated.  Jumped right out a window and splattered all over the roof of the hotel.  When I saw that Matthew had painted a grave, I knew he was gone for good. Continue reading →

An Incredibly Pointless and Stupid Exercise

– by Taran

So going to church was a smart move.  That’s a good place to be.  But then our guy follows this up with a magic mushroom vision quest over at Nate’s.  I guess he thought he could gain some special insight by downing some poisonous plants and seeing lots of pretty colors.  How stupid can you get?  We didn’t want to have anything to do with it, so we all pulled back.  The dark ones enjoyed themselves, though.  Yeah, that was a brilliant plan.  What was he thinking?  He could have drugged a child!  I gave him a hard talking to and he seemed genuinely sorry.

Run Rabbit Run

After discovering a chatroom online for people with DID, I was inspired to go out and buy my own copy of “When Rabbit Howls.”  I started reading it and realized that I had already read some of it before.  I skipped ahead a bit and started reading again.   I read a whole chapter and then realized I already knew what happened in the next chapter.  So I skipped ahead again.  I guess I’m a little over halfway through.  Maybe after I’m done I’ll go back and re-read it just to be sure I actually read it all.

Forward

– by Matthew

We are in motion towards the shaft of light breaking through the clouds.  It isn’t the destination that’s important, but the fact that we are journeying together.  This landscape is malleable and shifts on strange winds.  As we walk through the tall grass, our home moves along with us, tethered to my footsteps.

Taran is silent, but eager.  I see his eyes light up as we clear the top of each hill, anxious to see what lies ahead.  The younger one rides the Guardian of the Heart and his joy is infectious.  The other, less solid members of our company flicker about us like lights in a mist.  Below the roots of earth, I sense the dark cavern being dragged along behind us, the tripartite being refusing to acknowledge that any journey is taking place.

That is all I wish to say at this time, thank you.

Dimensional Warp Generator Needed

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“We’re all out there, somewhere, waiting to happen.”  – Jeff Noon, Vurt

Today a friend of mine suggested that I examine the symbols in my Waking Life, as they can be more profound than the ones I encounter in dreams.  It didn’t occur to me to do so until just now, on the crest of some desperate epiphany. Continue reading →