Books I Read in 1991

(2 Books/Month Average)
1. The Stand
2. Illusions
3. The Princess Bride
4. All I Really Needed to Know I Learned in Kindergarten
5. 666
6. Return of the Native
7. The Magician’s Nephew
8. This Present Darkness
9. Do You Have a Guardian Angel?
10. The Deep Things of God
11. The Authoritative Calvin and Hobbes
12. It Was on Fire When I Lay Down on It
13. The Heart of the Matter
14. Heart of Darkness
15. Annie John
16. The Difference Engine
17. Tapping the Source
18. The Screwtape Letters
19. A Grief Observed
20. Misery
21. The Great Divorce
22. Life’s Little Instruction Book
23. Heir to the Empire
24. The Complete Frank Miller Batman

DePauw

Begin my freshman year at DePauw.  I think my roommate’s name was Dan.  I lived in Lucy (a dorm).

Essay for Application to Akron University

I am on a teen speaking group called C.A.T.S., which stands for Concerned About Teen Sexuality.  The group is a branch of Akron Pregnancy Services, which serves as our home base.  The C.A.T.S. team travels around to local area high schools and churches, and we have been spread­ing out as far as Cleveland and New Philadelphia.  The main message of C.A.T.S. is that the safest form of sex is abstinence; that is, that sex should be saved until marriage.

I had become interested in joining C.A.T.S. when they had a recruiting assembly at my school.  I thought that I could use my writing abilities for a good cause and write skits and speeches for team members.  Merely writing the material seemed just fine for me, but I thought that there was no way that I myself could get up in front of hundreds of teens to discuss sex.  Well, I was some­how coaxed into presenting a C.A.T.S. talk and my speaking career took flight.  I am now in my second year of being on the team and have spoken to thousands of teens about the importance of sexuality and virginity.

I believe that the media and peer pressure is causing the teen-agers of America to sell them­selves out and have sex before marriage.  By having pre-marital sex, they trade in their vir­ginity for a chance to get a Sexually Transmitted Disease (including A.I.D.S.), an unwanted preg­nancy, and/or the emotional heartache that goes along with it.  I believe that our sexuality is a precious God-given gift that is meant to be shared with only one person: our future husband or wife.

Time after time I have seen the responses of teens, thanking us for taking such a strong stand.  We are changing lives by offering people an alternative to the lifestyle taught in today’s world.  We are the light in the darkness.  We bring Truth into their lives.

I have seen my thoughts, feelings and writing ability transformed into something that touches people’s lives.  If there is even one person in the entire crowd that listens and responds to what I have to say, then I have done my job.  I have experienced plenty of pain in my life and knowing that I’m helping another person avoid it is a great achievement to me.  It is an ex­perience that no school can teach, something money cannot buy.

A Kiss

Inducted into the National Honors Society.

I didn’t truly kiss a girl until I was 18. Kerry. She was also my first girlfriend.

Graduate from CVCA.

The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation

“The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.” – Henry David Thoreau

There exists in all of mankind a deep-seeded yearning to become something more than their ordinary selves, to cast aside the lot dealt to them by Life and to truly relish each intake of breath as something rich and wondrous.  These men take their big thoughts and epic dreams, get out of bed in the morning, kick open the front door . . . and run headlong into the reality of a world that has no room for their delusions of grandeur.

And so, the common man will succumb to the dictations of his society, fold his dreams up into a nice little package and go about his normal life as a pedestrian in a grey metropolis.  Every once in a while he can take his dream out of his pocket, look it over, turn it in the light to see it from all sides, and then put it away with a sigh.

While this ordinary fellow’s life goes on in quiet desperation, his next-door neighbor fulfills his dreams.  A few brave souls, in complete contradiction to society’s platitudes, eke out a full life as pioneers on the frontier of a new existence.  In the face of a world ruled by rich, fat, corporate cowboys riding horses of chromium steel, these men of consequence uphold the rare virtues of chivalry, bravery, romance and imagination.  They discover a higher emotional ground and give names to uncharted regions of the soul as they carve out the way to their destiny.

Along with the desire for a lead role on the stage of life is the need for love and companionship, neither of which man can escape.  The face of a young lady decorates the inner halls of each man’s heart.  The nature of the man will determine whether he shall seek out the woman of his dreams or remain content to stare at the cold image of someone whom he shall always see, but never touch.  Perhaps he will find someone else, but he will live with that image of love lost forever emblazoned in his heart.

Romance, in the truest and deepest sense, requires a man brave enough to make himself vulnerable and acknowledge his need for intimacy.  Women long for these men to enter their lives.

They wait in quiet anticipation, unwilling to let go of their romantic dreams of a prince who will come to their rescue.  Some settle for less and live contented lives with men of mediocrity, but the patient ones will someday look out their tower window to see that their prince has finally come.

While the prince and damsel ride off into the sunset, the ordinary man watches them go with an aching heart.  But the poet feverishly scribbles down the account of what he has seen in order to capture it with ink and paper.  The poet, a noble scribe of the higher ideals, uses his quiet desperation as a fuel to give fire to his writing.  He chronicles his thoughts, feelings, desires and experiences to contribute a verse to the great, ongoing saga of romance.

The true romantic maintains a balance of courage and quiet desperation.  While having the bravery to act upon his dreams, he holds onto his meekness and nervous anticipation so that his hunger for virtue is never quite sated.  For him, every laugh, every tear, and every kiss will seem as the very first, enjoyed in its purest form.

Time does not forget these men; those who made manifest in their lives the deep life call of all humanity; those who left behind their quiet desperation and changed their dreams into reality; those who dared to love . . . and dared to be loved.

My Computer Games

Action Games
3-K Trivia
4th and Inches
688 Attack Sub
Aaargh!
Airball
Altered Beast
Atomix
Block Out
Airborne Ranger
Ancient Art of War
Archon
Axe of Rage
Battle Chess
Battle Chess II
Battlehawks 1942
Blue Angels
California Games
Championship Boxing
Covert Action
Dark Castle
Dawn Raider
Deathtrack
Digger
Double Dragon
Dragon’s Lair II
Echelon
Elite
F-15 Strike Eagle II
F-19 Stealth Fighter
Falcon A.T.
Ferrari Formula One
Flight of the Intruder
Gauntlet II
Ghostbusters II
Golden Axe
Grand Prix Circuit
Grave Yardage
Gunship
Heavy Barrel
Impossible Mission II
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
J-Bird
MechWarrior
Moonbase
Netherworld
Night Mission Pinball
PCPool
Powerdrome
Prince of Persia
Punisher
Rampage
Resolution 101
Robocop
Rorke’s Drift
Shogun
Sim City
Sky Runner
Star Control
Star Trek V
Star Trek: Rebel Universe
Stellar 7
Stormlord
Stun Runner
Tapper
Test Drive
Test Drive III
Tetris
Thexder
Thexder II
Three Stooges
Time Bandits
Tongue of the Fatman
Tracker
Tunnels of Armageddon
TV Sports Football
UFO Flight Simulator
War in Middle Earth
Wild Streets
Wing Commander
Winter Games
Xiphos
X-Men II
Zany Golf
Zeliard

Adventure Games
Bard’s Tale
Bard’s Tale II
BattleTech
BattleTech II
Black Cauldron
Bureaucracy
Crimewave
CODENAME: Iceman
Dracula in London
Fellowship of the Ring
Hero’s Quest I
Hillsfar
Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy
The Hobbit
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Infidel
Keys of Maramon
King’s Quest I
King’s Quest II
King’s Quest III
King’s Quest IV
King’s Quest V
Knight Orc
Leisure Suit Larry I
Leisure Suit Larry II
Leisure Suit Larry III
Mean Streets
Megatraveler
The Pawn
Police Quest I
Police Quest II
Pool of Radiance
Sentinel Worlds I
Space Quest I
Space Quest II
Space Quest III
Spellcasting 101
Starflight
Star Trek: The Kobayashi Alternative
Star Trek: The Promethean Prophecy
Transylvania
Trinity
Ultima VI
Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?
Zyll

Books I Read in 1990

(1.75 Books/Month Average)
1. The Little Foxes
2. The Return of the King
3. Replay
4. For Love of Evil
5. The Tempest
6. The Crucible
7. Brave New World
8. Time of the Twins
9. The Turn of the Screw
10. The Slave Dancer
11. Heart of Darkness
12. A Good Man is Hard to Find
13. The Loved One
14. Scoop
15. A Handful of Dust
16. War of the Twins
17. Test of the Twins
18. Christine
19. The Magic of Krynn
20. Heart of Darkness
21. The Importance of Being Ernest

A Window on the Soul

People are like churches: their stained glass windows sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light within.  A weary traveler, worn with the stains of a long journey, has come in search of refuge for the night.  From the road he sees two churches perched atop two hills.  Both seem immaculately designed, stained glass windows catching the sunlight like diamond facets.  Either appears as a comfortable place which would welcome wayfarers such as he.  Choosing the nearest one, he wanders up the hill and enters in. Continue reading →

Fast Forward

My parents get divorced. I was in my bedroom reading Stephen King’s “The Stand” when my mom came in and announced this to my sister and I. I kept on reading to display my indifference. I wasn’t too bothered by this event, but it gave me something to talk about at school.

At some point I was invited by Jayne Gurley to attend church at Community of Believers.

Brandon and I become friends.

I meet Kerry Danko.

Begin senior year at CVCA.

I was class chaplain.

Brandon and I got a three day in-school suspension for ditching school one day and going to Cleveland.  It was so worth it. At first the school administration did not want to punish us as we were ordinarily pinnacles of good behavior (or at least I was), but we insisted. It was like getting a vacation and we enjoyed it very much.

May even enjoy fighting with others

The following is the personality report generated by “Mind Prober”, a computer program which asks you to evaluate a person’s personality traits with simple agree/disagree responses. I am pretty impressed with its insightfulness, even after all these years (6/14/2009).

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